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“Life Is What You Make Of It”

Although I know it’s been a while, I know I have a few things coming up that may catch your interest and be worthwhile for your reading pleasure.

As I missed my ‘oh so popular’ Nbeach_bucketew Year’s Resolutions post, aka “Bucket List-2015”, I figured, it is never too late to make one. So here is what I would like to do this year: (I know, you may laugh at a few of these but I’m totally okay with that)

I would like to…
*Go Skiing and/or Snowboarding
* Go Paddleboarding
*Go Surfing
*Go Paintballing
*Go on a snowmobile or 4 wheeler
*Volunteer with a charity
*Go Bungee Jumping
*Attend a country concert in the Summer
*Go to the Kentucky Derby
*Grow my OWN garden
*Go fishing
*Learn a new language
*Visit a new state
*Backpack Europe
*Get a nice camera and make it a nice hobby- Just purchased one today: )
*STILL NEED TO Learn how to shoot a gun at a shooting range
*STILL NEED TO Learn how to drive stick
*STILL NEED TO learn how to line dance

peaceAND finally… I want to do one crazy thing that someone plans for me. I don’t care what it is, just something that I have never done before. I know it is a bit scary to leave this in someone else’s hands…but I would like to do something completely out of my comfort zone and what better way than to challenge you all to put me to the test! So…who is it going to be? And what will it be? I will keep you all updated and posted.

However, with all of these things that I want to accomplish this year, I completely understand that it may or may not all work out how it is supposed to. But, that is what I have learned about this thing called life. Not everything works out how it is “supposed to”. And quite frankly, I don’t enjoy living life how we are “supposed to”.

spontaneousAs I have stated in the title and throughout this entire post, ‘Life is what we make of it’. We all go through trials and errors. We all experience problems. We all have issues. It’s evident. But what we do with each life lesson is completely up to us.
I feel like sometimes I may look at life a bit differently than most or should I say how we are raised we are ‘supposed to’ live life and I’ve come to terms to be okay with how I live my life. I refuse to settle. I am determined to live my life to the fullest. I refuse to be miserable with my life. I’m determined to find out what makes me happy, however long that may take. I’m determined to try new things. I’m determined to travel new places. And I’m determined to find a job that I enjoy.

So until then….I see no reason to be upset with the life that we are given. ‘Life is what we make of it’. Enjoy it. Embrace it. And just live a little: )

“This bright new day complete with 24 hours of choices, attitudes, and opportunities, a perfectly matched set of 1440 minutes, this unique gift, this one day cannot be exchanged, replaced or refunded. Handle with care. Make the most of it.”

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“Keep Calm, I’m Back!”

Once again, it has been a while….and by a while, I mean since May 27, 2014! Time flies by when you’re having fun…or working…or just not taking time to yourself in which most of us simply do not do enough. So, once again, I’m going to try this blog…for myself and for anyone who enjoys reading  it…

In the beginning of the year (2014), I wrote and proposed some things  that I wanted to try to do/accomplish for 2014. I’m quite disappointed in myself.  Here is what I stated in that blog with explanations if I completed or not:

“So here is SOME of what I would like to try for 2014..(or New Years Resolutions as some call it) Of course, I may not be able to do all of these, but that is what other years are for…

  1. I would like to learn to drive stick-INCOMPLETE
  2. I would like to go to a shooting range and learn to shoot-INCOMPLETE
  3. I would like to learn/go snowboarding-INCOMEPLETE
  4. I would like to go zip lining-COMPLETED (indoor zip lining in Kentucky)
  5. I would like to go bungee jumping (really quite scared to do this one)-INCOMPLETE
  6. I would like to go to a concert (Yes, believe it or not, I’ve never been to one!)-COMPLETED! (Michael Buble-Melbourne Australia)
  7. I would like to go to a state that I’ve never been too (Arizona, Texas, Maine?)-INCOMPLETE (Believe it or not)
  8. I would like to learn how to crochet-INCOMPLETE
  9. I would like to take line dancing classes or attend a square dance-INCOMPLETE
  10. I would like to try Grates wings (A well known local joint in Fremont, my home town-INCOMPLETE
  11. Eat healthier- COMPLETED (Finally and working out 5 days a week!)
  12. Get more organized-COMPLETED (A start anyways)
  13. & my favorite…Laugh more & Cry Less….”-COMPLETED! “

As you can see…I didn’t get many of these done….which is a shame.  However, the year isn’t over yet. I still have time to complete these.  So, if anyone is willing and able to assist me, guide me, or join me in any of the above resolutions to complete before the New Year, LETS GO!

Now, I also wouldn’t say this year was a complete waste.  I was able to get a “decent” amount of travel and experiences in ktblog2that were not on my list:

*Key West, FL- Was able to bar hope, and make it to the Southern Most Point in the United States
*Grand Cayman- Snorkeled in the ocean and swam with stingrays *Jamaica- Climbed Dunn’s River Falls (Waterfall)
*Sydney, Australia- journeyed there by myself this time with no family members
*Melbourne, Australia- Went to my first concert, tried Indian food, went to local bars & the city
*Honolulu, Hawaii- Saw Sea Turtles, marine base, North Shore, ate Hawaiian shrimp & swordfish, hiked diamond head and other local spots, stayed in a hostel
*Maui- Completed the single lane road to Hana, saw numerous waterfalls, saw the only black sand beach
*San Diego, CA- Saw the treacherous forest fires that were burning all over the city
*Chicago, IL- Went to the Zoo
* Louisville, KY- Went  indoor zip lining in the caves
*Put In Bay, OH- Went Kayaking for my first time
*Bahamas- TBD (Cruise Dec 13)
*St. Thomas- TBD (Cruise Dec 13)
*San Juan- TBD (Cruise Dec 13)
*Grand Turk- TBD (Cruise Dec 13)

It’s evident that I love to travel. It’s obvious that I love the beach. And it’s abnormal how I live my life. But, if there is anything that I have come to conclusion with, it’s that, I enjoy the life I live.

It hasn’t been easy coming to this conclusion but it fits with my lifestyle. I work many seasonal jobs that have allowed me the availability to take trips.  It has been sometimes (and by sometimes…I mean almost all the time) hard to understand. A lot of my friends (Now mid-twenties) have full time jobs, houses, kids, and what I like to call stability.  It took me a while to understand that my plan of getting out of college, getting a full time job, moving out of Ohio, getting married, having kids, ect ect ect was a plan…..and in life, our plans don’t always go the way we want them too. My plan now, is to just live my life because truth is, I am stable, I am working, I am making it on my own….just in my own kind of way….and to be honest, that is okay to do.

My life: It’s hectic. It’s uncertain. It’s scary. And….it’s very different from most. But, it’s my life. I live, I learn, and I take nothing for granted. I travel to learn. I travel to explore. I travel to meet people. I live my life because I can and most of all…I am able too!

I hope to keep you all updated on my future endeavors, words of wisdom, beliefs on current, past, and future issues with this blog. Please let me know if you would like to hear, see, or have me write about anything specific. Now, who’s ready to help complete my “New Year’s Resolutions” before the end of the year?

“I’ll look back on this and smile because it was Life and I decided to live it”

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Life Is A Journey…Explore Yourself

IMG_2690As my almost 2 month journey comes to an end, I feel a mixture of emotions…I can’t help but think to myself…about LIFE.
Life can be anything we want it to. We have the ability to make what we want out of it. If we want to do something-we do it. If we don’t want to do something-we just don’t.
However, so many times throughout my life, I’ve been so indecisive. I never know what to do…I want too but then I don’t. I think about the consequences, my future, and of course, what we all think and worry about…money.
Lately thought, I’ve tried to stop thinking about the consequences especially the money part. So many of us worry too much about money, for instance, if we can or can’t do something because of the cost…
But, think about it, life can be ANYTHING we want it to. If we want to travel and explore the world, we can make it happen! We work hard for a reason…but we also can ALWAYS find some kind of work wherever we are at. (Even though it may not be what we want at the time or the most enjoyable, it pays for us to enjoy life for the time being) So in retrospect, don’t worry about money, it can always be made…
I’ve also learned that while traveling, it is not about staying in the nicest places or doing the most expensive things, its more about meeting new people, finding free/cheap/interesting things to do, and exploring while having fun…
I guess the biggest step to life is finding the courage to live and be happy. We all know that’s no easy task. Life has a way of throwing curve balls and bumps in the middle of the road that can test our courage. (Believe me, I’ve had my fair share and a lot of it my own fault…) But, none of that means to stop…it means, learn a few lessons and keep moving forward. There is so much life to live, see, and do!
So, if I told you these 2 months were easy, I would be completely lying to myself and to you…
I have been completely tested on this journey in ways that only some or even just myself would understand..but I wouldn’t take back any of this for the world.
From Ohio to Chicago to LA to Sydney to Melbourne to Sydney to Honolulu to Maui to Honolulu to LA IMG_2615to San Diego to Denver to Detroit To Fremont to Chicago to Fremont to Louisville and finally back to FREMONT (home sweet home), it was one amazing journey to say the least… I’ve seen and experienced so many things. Most of all, and more than anything, I lived my life.
I’m sure many of you ask yourself; “How can she just do this?”. It’s actually quite simple. Listen to the advice from your elders, realize when they state: “Do it while you can” & “Do it while you’re young”, they ABSOLUTELY mean it. Many times, there are others that state they regret not traveling more…
The more I thought about these statements, the more I realized that there is so much life to see, to live, and so many more people to meet…
IMG_2585Since then, I have taken all the chances that I can get to travel…but this past trip was for me.
I wanted to test myself. I wanted to do something on my own. More than anything, I needed to find me and what I really want in life.
I did, however, manage to realize that we shouldn’t focus so much on what we want in life but more so what we need. What we want and need is completely different. And, truth is, what we need in life is very, very small.
Many of us have this idea that is brought on by society itself as well as others that we need more that we really should. (And of course, it has to be name brand, heaven forbid!) Kind of crazy to think how absolutely little you need to live a good, happy life.
For instance, I tested this theory by doing something totally out of my comfort zone. I’ve been fortunate enough to stay in hotels for the most part of my life while traveling. But, when traveling alone and to just see the world, there is really no need for that especially while on a budget. I decided to stay in a hostel.
So many, including myself, like to think of that word meaning; dirty, sketchy, shady, ect, ect, ect. Absolutely, completely wrong.
After being in Australia, now 3 times, and having the luxury to work with backpackers, I have heard that hostels are the way to go when traveling alone. However, like anything, you should definitely do your research…to be better safe than sorry.
I decided to stay at a family owned hostel in Waikiki for 2 nights as I was unsure if I would really like it or not. To my surprise, it was quite enjoyable. I had 5 roommates from all over the world, some only in for a few days. They ranged from the Netherlands, Italy, Germany, Australia, and New Jersey. The best part was, we all shared one common goal, to explore Hawaii and make the best out of our trip.
It by far, was one of my greatest accomplishments to do on my own. Believe me, it was so scary at first. I didn’t know who to talk to, where to sit, proper protocol, or event if I would be able to sleep. But, I did it! I opened up to people, made new friends, learned to survive, and even ended up staying all 5 nights in the hostel!
Which brings me to another scary point but completely worth it in the end, is traveling alone. It’s hard,IMG_2523 and not easy but can definitely be done. It really does teach you so much about yourself…
Although, I wasn’t alone ALL of my trips. I have so many to thank for being by my side…(and if I forgot you, don’t worry, I really didn’t, I just didn’t give you this special shout out) Thank you Jeff, Saul, Lotte, MJ, Jay & Jane, all the staff at Hollywood horrors, Brennan, Chad & Claire, and Kinzie. All of you put up with living and working with me at some point or another and helping me throughout my journey in many ways that I will forever be thankful for…
But when it came time to being alone, it was quite tough. I feel it was only tough because that is what my head was telling me. We really can do anything we want. They just never told us somethings, it isn’t as easy as it looks. You just kind of have to figure that part out on your own…
I guess what I’m really trying to say is that traveling alone can be quite overwhelming especially at first and it can definitely get a bit lonely at times. Also, as a young woman, traveling alone, I had to be very good at reading people and very aware of my surroundings at all times.
IMG_2399I know it was scary, lonely, intimidating, and hard at times, I wouldn’t take back the moments that I was able to have and experience. It forced me to learn directions (Yes, Jeff, believe it or not, I learned how to get around cities by bus, train, and even walking!), to talk to new people, to reconnect with friends I have from all over the world, to eat new food, to try new things, and to do things that I would normally never do because I was completely able to be out of my comfort zone..
I can’t begin to explain the whirlwind of emotions that I went through on my journeys but what I can tell you is that it is worth every second… I have and always will support traveling. It is a part of me now that I take with me wherever I go.
Now that I am on my last flight writing this last piece to my journey, I can begin to explain what all is going through my head…
To wonder “What if?” And, “Whats next?”is one of the scariest things to think about… but I know I have some great opportunities out there for me. I have some great places in mind to move and I now know I really can make it on my own.
I do truly hope that I will not have to do this alone forever.. I would love nothing more than to share these journeys, experiences, and memories with someone.IMG_2507
So many of my friends are in a relationship, married, or have kids at this stage in their lives. I couldn’t be more happy and proud of them! I’m just not one to push this subject on anyone, but it sometimes can make you think and wonder why not me?
I can’t force anything to happen with that part of my life. I know it will happen when I least expect it. I couldn’t be more thankful for those people that show up in your life though during your travels that remind you of the good qualities that you do have…they provide a sense of hope for your future…and that I won’t be alone forever…
Whatever I decided to do after this journey is totally up to me. I have the ability to do whatever I want because it is my life and I need to just live. It is not about the right or the wrong decision, it is about doing what is going to make me happy…
I finally feel I am completely ready for the next chapter of my life…Let the next journey begin…

“Find The Courage To Just Be Happy”


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To Date A Girl That Travels…Or Not?

GEDSC DIGITAL CAMERAA few weeks ago, I was awaken from a text from a good friend of mine. His text said:
“This is the first thing that popped up on my newsfeed this morning”:

(And yes, that is all it said….)

I know this may be a lot more work, but I’m asking you to please, take a few minutes to read the above link…(Takes about 3 minutes)

Now that we are on the same page…here is what I thought about this.

I am a woman that has been brought up traveling. My  parents were fortunate enough to take me along many of their trips. I was able to see a lot of the world and experience new adventures along the way. However, I didn’t stop just there…I now am traveling on my own. I’m booking my own trips to see parts of the world. And I’m taking every chance I get to see and explore new countries.

This girl had some great opinions…but opinions that I simply just do not agree with.

1. “She’s the one with messy, unkept hair”- I disagree. I, like many, like to keep my hair well groomed. However, when need be, I do know how to not wash my hair and just throw it up o put it in braid. Mainly, I know how to keep it maintained enough to still pull off a cute look. This to me, is considered a turn on for a man. A woman that does not take 2 hours to get ready, a woman that can just throw up their hair, be ready to go, and still look stunning!

2. “She is hard to please”-I disagree. I seem to think I am very easy to please. Since, I have lived with little to nothing at times, not had cell reception in many places, and have learned that you must walk, train, bike, or cab it in order to get where you are going, I like to think I’m a pretty flexible person due to traveling. She stated in her post “The usual dinner-movie date will suck the life out of her”. How completely wrong this is. A woman that travels, absolutely loves dinner and a movie. When thinking of traveling, that usually isn’t the first thing on our agenda. We many times, miss out on movies and are unable to see on the big screen! PLUS at this day and age, a man taking any woman out on any date, is always a plus! These days, it hard to find or do! Especially with a travelers busy schedule! Therefore, we as travelers are quite easy to please. We make do with what we have, and appreciate the little things in life versus the ones who do the same thing over and over again.

3. “She will bug you to book a flight every time there’s an airline seat sale-I agree. For once, I think I may agree with this statement. Why not watch the airline sales!? There are great deals that come through and sometimes are too good to pass up. If willing and able, why not go? I’m a firm believer in finding great deals, and if it’s meant to be, then go for it! I would much rather spend my money on a flight then going out to the bar for one night!

4. “Chances are she can’t hold a steady job”-I disagree. Most of us that enjoy traveling, do hold steady jobs. Although it may not be your 9-5 business job, we do have many steady jobs. Some may even be seasonal. The biggest part is keeping a steady job in order so we can travel. We prefer to keep in touch and make connections.  Most of all, most that travel are hard workers. We make money, we save money, and we spend money wisely in order to travel. But in order to make money, we must work hard. Therefore, most of us work long hours, or multiple jobs…Remember, we work hard for our travels;)

5. “She might have wasted her college degree and switched careers completely.”-I disagree. Since when are you ever ‘wasting’ a college degree. I seem to remember taking many classes that didn’t even pertain to my college degree. Therefore, I believe college gave us further education in general.  And how many people do completely switch careers? Quite a few, or so I hear…AND what is so wrong in switching a career? If you do not like what you do, then why not switch it up? We are allowed. Further more, the way I look at it, I am not ‘wasting’ my college degree. I am just furthering my education by exploring the world first before I utilize my college degree? When is the right or wrong time to go to college? When is the right or wrong time to use your degree? And when is the right or wrong time to know exactly what you want to do in life? Only you will know….Don’t judge others based upon your experiences….

6. “Don’t date a girl that travels for she has chosen a life of uncertainty.”- I agree to disagree. This blog writer is right in some aspects, as most of us that travel, do live by the seat of our pants. If an opportunity arises to travel, we find a way to go. And most of us, are uncertain as to what exactly our future holds….however, aren’t others that do not travel uncertain of many things? Life throws us blocks in the road quite often? Although many of us are uncertain that travel, many of us have set goals that you may be unaware about. I know I will want to travel forever but that doesn’t mean, I don’t want to get a steady job, a husband, have a family, or even have a place to call home. I look at choosing uncertainty as…choosing opportunities.

7. “She tends to speak her mind.”-I agree. A woman that travels, is forced to learn how to speak her mind. However, unlike many that speak their mind frequently or at the wrong time and place, we have learned the right from wrong. Many travelers deal with a variety of cultures and experiences that allow us to see and learn the right techniques in order to speak our mind. We know how to respect one another. We understand there is a certain degree to speaking our minds but at least we have the ‘balls’ to do it.

8.”She will never need you”- I completely disagree. I will admit, many women that travel, are very independent but we still need others. Although, we can do many things on our own,there are plenty that we can not. I will need you…I enjoy company of others, I enjoy meeting new people but I also love needing someone…My life is not meant for me to enjoy alone…

9. And then she closes with this…”So never date a girl who travels unless you can keep up with her. And if you unintentionally fall in love with one, don’t you dare keep her. Let her go.”- I couldn’t DISAGREE more with this woman...If you fall in love with a girl who travels….keep her. Love doesn’t just come and go… Go with her. Explore the world together. Do something different. And don’t let her go….hold her as close as possible. A girl that travels, wants to feel loved. Men come in and out of her life but never stay…always letting her go…I guarantee if the right man came along….a girl that travels would limit her travel to keep up with the man as well….it may just take time and some communication…..More than anything, if you ‘unintentionally’ fall is love with a girl who travels, don’t punish her. Respect her, love her, and find a way to make things work…..DSCF4334

In closing…obviously I travel. I love to explore the world. I love the beach. And I love new experiences. And if there is one thing that I have learned throughout talking to so many different people…the one thing people regret in life…is not traveling more. So many say, “I wish I would have traveled more, or could have…”

So, their advice:

“Do it While You Can, and Do it While Your Young…”

PS- I’m heading back to Australia;)

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I Went To Australia….AGAIN!:)

travel2It seems as though….it has been forever since I’ve updated or wrote a post…

Well it has….

Truth is, I’ve been working, traveling, and across the world in Australia.  But, I think it’s important that I be honest… I’ve wanted to write in my blog.  I wanted to share my opinions. And I wanted to post.  But, I simply couldn’t.  I seemed to hit a hard spot in life.  I thought things were shaping up.  I thought I was getting my life together.  It all seemed like things were on the right track. I got my job back, I received another job, I had a boyfriend that seemed to have his ‘stuff’ together, I got a new apartment, I was looking into going back to school, and I was using my past experiences as motivation because I thought I was moving forward.  Truth is, I wasn’t.  I was stuck.  I wasn’t happy. I thought staying busy, dating someone with his ‘shit’ together, and forgetting about all the hurt I went through would make me happy again.  I was wrong. I fell deeper and deeper….until opportunity arose again…..Sydney Opera House, Australia

The chance to go back to Australia….Although, I debated, and debated about going back to Australia, I decided, it’s what was best for me.  It’s what I needed to do.  I knew from previous experience, the amount of time, energy, and work it takes in Australia to make sure that the business is running.  Many of you that know me that are reading this may know what I do over there where as others may not. So I will explain as everyone asks, so what is it that you do over there?

DSCN1180I go to Australia to help run a Haunted House.  My dad has owned and operated a haunted house for 24 years now. He was hired out to train their actors, build and manage in Australia.  I went last year willing and able to do anything just so I could get to another country and experience the work life.  I must have impressed them a bit to where they wanted me back. I came back this year to partake a bigger role and assist them with management.  Believe me, working a haunted house at the biggest festival in Australia with over almost 1 million visitors is no easy task.  We worked 14-16 hours a day for 3 weeks straight in the 80-100 degree Fahrenheit heat. And if we were lucky, we would get 2 30 minute breaks.    We built, ran, and tore down a haunted house.  It was my job to make sure things ran smoothly.  You can only imagine it was my job to be wonder woman.  But to me, this is all great learning lessons but more than anything, amazing life experiences.

And as much as I hesitated to go, I’m SO glad I went.  I thought I had my life coming together before I left.  But, I didn’t.  I wasn’t happy, I was lost, I had no sense of direction…

When I went to Australia, I had no connection with the United States. We had no internet connection and little time to experience Australia. Of course it was tough not being able to talk to my family or friends but in a way it was kind of nice in a way because sometimes we depend on friends and family too much and need to do things on our own. Be a bit independent.  We didn’t get to enjoy Australia as we just worked, ate and slept. But, what I did experience, wasDSCN1217 me.  Was who I am. Who I want to be. Where I want to be….

I met an amazing friend and now boyfriend in Australia.  I’m sure your thinking, I’m pretty crazy.  Let’s get this straight, he’s not an Aussie.  He’s an American from Chicago, Illinois.  He came on the trip to work as well and met us in Sydney, Australia.  He too is in the haunt business and has been since a little kid.  (How ironic right?) However, he is my age, and shared the same outlook on life.  We connected from the first time we met.  He’s outgoing, a hard worker, and a bit spontaneous, and a handy man;)  Although, I was a bit mean when I first spoke to him…(If you ever meet him, you will have to ask him about our ‘first’ encounter) TravelBut, what I will say, is that this man was my rock.  He kept me sane, motivated, and most of all alive through all the work in Australia.  When you work 16 hours a day for 3 1/2 weeks straight, we all go through our share of emotions.  We both shared our mad, sad, frustrated, happy, goofy, and every emotional state possible with each other.  But, we were always there for one another…we helped each other out.  Although we worked at a haunted house, we were able to keep each other from really going crazy! And that right there is AMAZING! For a man to keep any woman from going crazy is definitely a keeper….

And since I’m being honest, I want to admit, I always swore I had a type for men….but let’s be real, it clearly wasn’t working.  They were everything I wanted but didn’t need.  They didn’t treat me right, make me happy, or help me as a person see what I need to do.  However, I don’t know if we should strive so much on a specific ‘type’ that we date. We need to focus more on the connection, the person, and how they treat us.  I swore I would never date another ‘haunter’/’actor’ or even participate in this business……but look at me now.  I was searching so much for what I wanted, I lost track in what I really needed.

So, here it is….since going to Australia, I have realized, life is way to short to work all the time, not experience life, and most of all not take chances.  In life, we need to be happy. And for once, I came home, and realized I’m ready to do whatever it is to be happy. Take chances. Take risks. And be a bit spontaneous.  Travel, explore the world as much as possible. Meet new people, share new experiences, and most of all LIVE LIFE.  We think too much about what we want and forget too much about what we need… I’m ready to finally be…just…me:)

“Ones Destination Is Never A Place, But A New Way Of Seeing Things….”


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I Feel Old….

oldIt’s true, I’m starting to feel old.  I know, I know, I’m not that old. I get it. However, I’m realizing that I’m past a certain stage of my life….

We all go through many phases of life.  Whether it’s the young, immature, college, party animal, study freak, or just plain bum, we all go through some kind of phase. And at some point, we all hit…..realization.  (I don’t necessarily want to say, the next phase of our life, or to be grown up) But, we all hit a point where we realize, we aren’t who we used to be.

For me, I realized that I hit another phase of my life when I surround myself with college kids and feel so old compared to them. Once again, I know I’m not old but I feel as though I’m passed that stage. I no longer want to get hammered at home before I go out, act a fool, get hammered some more at the bar, and then come home puke, and do it all over the next day.  First, my body just simply can’t handle that anymore.  My hangovers are two days hangovers. And second, I would rather enjoy my alcohol than waste it;)

I also realized it when I found myself thinking about the future more.  Don’t get me wrong, I’ve always thought about the future but more so about finances, taxes, education, careers, relationships, and locations.  You know, that ‘grown up’ stuff.  But not only was I thinking about it, I have begun to start to do it.old2

I have decided that my current degree, ‘Tourism, Leisure, & Event Planning’, just isn’t for me.  I have had little to no motivation to find a job.  Although, I may be very skilled in this field, I do not have the passion for this job. I have thought a lot about what I have passion for regarding a future career. I love to help people, I love kids, and I love education.  After hearing myself say this, I knew that I have a desire to teach.  So, I’m heading back to grad school in the fall to get my Master’s as an intervention specialist.

Of course it’s a shocker when we begin a life change in careers.  Of course, it’s a shocker when we can’t party like we used too. And of course, it’s a shocker when we begin to think about furthering relationships.  But, this is all part of life.  We get old, we mature, and we begin to understand the meaning of life.  However, I will say, just because we begin a new phase doesn’t mean we still can’t go back the older one….it’s usually just a different style. For instance, I can still party with the best of them….just cannot do it as often as I used too….

Although, I’m 24 years old and feel old, it’s only because I’m at a new stage of my life. I’m ready to start what I really want to do. I’m ready to incorporate stability into my lifestyle.  And most importantly, realize, I’m not old, I’m just beginning to recognize, understand, and make a life….

“We Are Never Too Old”


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From The Grinch To Joy To The World

christmasThere was once was a girl who truly enjoyed Christmas.  She loved spending time with her family, watching the fire in the fireplace, and leaving carrots and celery for Santa. (As she didn’t want him to get ‘bigger’ than he already was so he could make it down the chimney to all the houses.) And, of course, she enjoyed all the wonderful presents she would get.

Then, one year, her parents went through some financial difficulty.  They were unable to get her the things that she wanted.  However, her parents still tried to make it special….in which they did.  But, many of her friends did not really understand or support the Christmas that she had, had. They were all bragging as to what they got…and just couldn’t understand why she really hadn’t received much.

Although she hadn’t received much, she really was able to realize that Christmas isn’t about gifts.  It’s about spending time with family, friends, and most of all celebrating Jesus’ Birthday.  (And of course, hopefully getting some good food).  To her, that was one of the most amazing Christmas’ that she has ever had.  She learned the true meaning of Christmas and most of all made a holiday special with little to nothing.

As the years went on, she had her fair share of good and bad Christmas’. However, as the years passed, she realized that so many people truly do not understand the ‘true’ meaning of Christmas. They expect presents.  They expect happy families.  They expect the best of the best.  And they like to brag.  One thing that she truly couldn’t stand….

She felt Christmas was becoming more commercialized.  More about presents.  More about bragging.  And more about who gets what, how much each spends, and less about what is really important.

That’s when her feelings started to change.  Even though she had, had a few tough Christmas Holidays, she still enjoyed Christmas.  But, christmas2she couldn’t help it anymore, she didn’t want to support the commercialized Christmas Holiday anymore.  She became a scrooge.  She was full of ‘Ba Hum Bugs’.  Her parents began hearing her say, ‘I hate Christmas’. …

Finally, after a few years, they had, had enough.  They told her that, although we have had some tough Christmas’, we have had a lot of very good ones.  (Which was all very true…) But, then she mentioned about everyone else….and the season being so commercialized.  Her parents told her that, she should really remember what Christmas is all about.  More than anything, they wanted her to know how much it hurt her parents and others around her about being a Scrooge.  It’s no fun when ‘Ba Hum Bug’ takes place in a household, let alone anywhere!

They were exactly right….She realized she needed to stop worrying about everyone else.  She needed to enjoy the holidays with her friends and family.  Most of all, surround herself with people who really do understand the true meaning of Christmas.

And this she, AKA Grinch, was exactly….me.

DSCN1124-001So, this year, I decided to push away the ‘Commercialized’ Christmas and surround myself with the true meaning of Christmas.  I started by helping my parents put up the Christmas decorations….played Christmas music…and started to get into the Christmas spirit.  But, Christmas is so much more to me that just some decorations.  I like to help people.  I decided this year, I really wanted to help my Aunt, as she has ‘Multiple Scorosis’ and is unable to do what she truly wants and loves.  Christmas is her favorite holiday. She loves to give presents, to make the presents special, to have meaning to everything, to wrap pretty, and most of all to see the smiles on people’s faces as they walk into her beautifully decorated house.  I spent many days decorating her entire house, ordering presents for the family, and wrapping them all up.  To me, this gave me a reason for Christmas.  This was better than buying a present…it was giving a present that had no monetary value….It was a present full of love….

So instead of being a ‘Grinch’ for the holiday season, I have transformed into understanding and wanting to give ‘Joy To The World’.   It is my goal, every Christmas from now on, to do something good for someone with little to no ‘monetary value’.  And as much as Christmas has become commercialized and so many people do not understand the true meaning of Christmas, I for one, will no longer be considered the Grinch…

“Merry Christmas & Happy Holidays”

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Almost A Month Without A Blog…W.T.F!

I can’t believe I’ve almost gone a whole entire month without writing! Shame on me….

Truth is, when I don’t write, I feel a bit more stressed.  I really need to make sure I continue writing on a daily or at least weekly basis.  Writing allows me personal time to myself where I am able to finally voice my opinion.  And, I might be ‘kinda’ good at it;)

So this past month completely flew by.  I’ve experienced so much within the last month.  As I said on my previous blog post, I attended my first ‘official’ wedding.  I went on a ‘real’ date with a complete stranger that I introduced myself too.  And of course, the big one, stepped up into a Management role for my parents Haunted House.  That alone kept me completely busy for the month of October….

As always, my life keeps me fairly busy. Let’s look at it this way…..

January-living in Cleveland, OH.  Working at Buffalo Wild Wings and Longhorn Steakhouse
Feburary-living in Fremont, OH.  Working with my parents to prepare for The Haunted Hydro season
March-April-living in Sydney, Australia.  Working with Hollywood Horrors.
May-September-Living in Put-In-Bay, OH.  Working at Splash, The Pirate Ship, Dizzy Lizard, and The World’s Smallest Margarita Bar
October-November-Living in Fremont, OH.  Working as Park Manager for The Haunted Hydro.

After writing that out and looking at that….I’m shocked.  I’ve moved 5 times already JUST this year and probably going to move one more time before the year is over.  And that is just this year……No wonder my mail man can’t get my mail to the right place!;/

However, along this journey this year, I have met so many wonderful people. And because of that, my journey isn’t ending just yet…I’m just not quite ready to be finished with my travels and experiences.  I have much more to endure….

So, to my readers, new and old, I will be making a decision this week as to what is next. As of now, I am planning on going back to my seasonal job in Put In Bay, Ohio for one more Summer. So that means, in the mean time, I now much find a ‘Winter’ job.  I’m looking into a few places around the area so a big move isn’t necessary.  I also may have an opportunity with ‘Hollywood Horrors’ again but this time in New Zealand.  But, I will tell you, I did pass my ‘big girl’ resume on to a few places for a full-time job that had asked to see my resume.  Until then, my life continues to move forward and hopefully will have good news as to what’s next soon….

And…by the way, I’m accepting blog topics to talk about as I sometimes get writers block for my upcoming blogs since I now finally have time to write.  I love being able to voice my opinion on subjects that I’m able to but all idea’s are welcome!

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Let The Craziness Begin And End…

As if my life isn’t already crazy, hectic, and non-stop, I really have been full-out lately.

With the busiest month at work, working non-stop, helping my parents promote & sell sponsorships, as well as plan my class reunion.  It has been quite hectic.  Which is another reason why I haven’t had time to write my blog.  I’m sure that’s a lame excuse but really, all my free time, is spent on these other duties I acquired and well sleep. AND, I must admit, I’ve been reading the amazing “Fifty Shades”. But I must say, that is definitely for another post.

Although, I must say, with being this busy, time has gone by mighty fast.  See for me, Summer is awesome for a while working on an island but it gets straining, exhausting an old because unlike most people who spend their Summers taking vacations, having time off, and having fun, I spend mine working my ass off.  So for me, time going fast is quite a good thing.  Because after Summer, is when I get to enjoy myself.

And this week has truly been a true test for me.  This week I have been working my butt off.  I have to leave the Island tomorrow for my class reunion to be celebrated in my home town that I planned.  Then be back on this island early in the morning to bartend part of my class reunion.  On top  of being the deadline for one of my parents sponsorships.

Needless to say, I’m ready for the craziness of Summer to begin and end.  And this is the true test of Summer. We only have a few more weeks of craziness on this island.  And I have to keep my cool and upbeat self.  As for my life, I’m a ‘Turner’, and crazy runs in my family. So, quite frankly the craziness never ends.

And let’s be honest, craziness is sometimes a good thing. We can’t live life being so over protective.  We deserve a little craziness.  And it only adds some memories to life.  Some fun, some terrible, and some just plain out embarrassing but I could never live a dull and boring life.  

So, after all this working and planning, I’m ready to let my hair down this weekend and have some craziness with my friends from high school.  I deserve it. And I promise, after this craziness to start writing more frequent blogs.  Because soon, this too shall end…

“Just Get A Little Crazy”

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It Was My Choice….

Your Right.  It was.

We all have choices in life.  We all make right ones all the time  But we all have made the wrong ones before.  But sometimes, it takes us a long time to realize whether they were right or wrong.  But, it’s a choice we are forced to make sometimes.  And sometimes, you take a huge chance.  But, it’s a chance that I took and right now, I can’t go back and change. Because sometimes, the choice you made, you have to stick with in order to find out the results.

So, I’m not going back on this decision right now.  I’m staying strong.  Because, it’s the only option I have.  And I have always been told to never go back on your words.  And there is a reason why I made that choice.  Deep down, there is some kind of reason.  Sadly, I’m not even quite sure what that reason is, which may be the reason why I’m having such a hard time with why I made the choice I did.  However, I know that something inside of me, wasn’t ready and made that choice for a reason.

I’ve decided, I’m not going to search for that reason anymore.  It’s been too hard to find and understand.  Instead, I’m going to do what I’ve always wanted to do.  I’m going to travel.  I’m going to help people.  And more importantly, I’m going to find me.  I want and need to find out, what I really want to do with my life.  What better way to do it then travel the world.  I’m not quite sure how I’m going to go about doing this.  But, I have so many friends that I have met throughout the years that can help me along my way.

This time, I’m determined.  I need to find out more about me.  What I truly like, what I truly want, what I truly have, what I truly want to do, and more than anything, who I really am?  Because, no one deserves a woman who has no idea what they want in life.  So until I find that out, I’m going to do me and more than anything, I’m going to find me.

Making a decision is no easy task. But having a choice and turning it down creates a wheel of emotions.  Although, once a choice is made, we must live with it.  And this time, I’m not running away from a choice, a problem, or life because this time, I’m searching.  I may walk, jog, or run to find a place to find me not to lose me or lose others.

This may only begin to be the journey of a lifetime, but I can guarantee that it will happen.  And truth is, I am where I am today because of the choices I have made so far.  And although, we make mistakes in many choices that we make, there are lessons to be learned from each of our mistakes.  But more importantly, some choices knock us down, and it very well may have with me, but I have made the choice to get back up and keep moving….(Stay tuned for where I decide to start my Winter travels….)

“Every Person, All The Events In Your Life, Are There Because You Have Drawn Them There. What You Choose To Do With Them, Is Up To You”


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