Life Is A Journey…Explore Yourself

IMG_2690As my almost 2 month journey comes to an end, I feel a mixture of emotions…I can’t help but think to myself…about LIFE.
Life can be anything we want it to. We have the ability to make what we want out of it. If we want to do something-we do it. If we don’t want to do something-we just don’t.
However, so many times throughout my life, I’ve been so indecisive. I never know what to do…I want too but then I don’t. I think about the consequences, my future, and of course, what we all think and worry about…money.
Lately thought, I’ve tried to stop thinking about the consequences especially the money part. So many of us worry too much about money, for instance, if we can or can’t do something because of the cost…
But, think about it, life can be ANYTHING we want it to. If we want to travel and explore the world, we can make it happen! We work hard for a reason…but we also can ALWAYS find some kind of work wherever we are at. (Even though it may not be what we want at the time or the most enjoyable, it pays for us to enjoy life for the time being) So in retrospect, don’t worry about money, it can always be made…
I’ve also learned that while traveling, it is not about staying in the nicest places or doing the most expensive things, its more about meeting new people, finding free/cheap/interesting things to do, and exploring while having fun…
I guess the biggest step to life is finding the courage to live and be happy. We all know that’s no easy task. Life has a way of throwing curve balls and bumps in the middle of the road that can test our courage. (Believe me, I’ve had my fair share and a lot of it my own fault…) But, none of that means to stop…it means, learn a few lessons and keep moving forward. There is so much life to live, see, and do!
So, if I told you these 2 months were easy, I would be completely lying to myself and to you…
I have been completely tested on this journey in ways that only some or even just myself would understand..but I wouldn’t take back any of this for the world.
From Ohio to Chicago to LA to Sydney to Melbourne to Sydney to Honolulu to Maui to Honolulu to LA IMG_2615to San Diego to Denver to Detroit To Fremont to Chicago to Fremont to Louisville and finally back to FREMONT (home sweet home), it was one amazing journey to say the least… I’ve seen and experienced so many things. Most of all, and more than anything, I lived my life.
I’m sure many of you ask yourself; “How can she just do this?”. It’s actually quite simple. Listen to the advice from your elders, realize when they state: “Do it while you can” & “Do it while you’re young”, they ABSOLUTELY mean it. Many times, there are others that state they regret not traveling more…
The more I thought about these statements, the more I realized that there is so much life to see, to live, and so many more people to meet…
IMG_2585Since then, I have taken all the chances that I can get to travel…but this past trip was for me.
I wanted to test myself. I wanted to do something on my own. More than anything, I needed to find me and what I really want in life.
I did, however, manage to realize that we shouldn’t focus so much on what we want in life but more so what we need. What we want and need is completely different. And, truth is, what we need in life is very, very small.
Many of us have this idea that is brought on by society itself as well as others that we need more that we really should. (And of course, it has to be name brand, heaven forbid!) Kind of crazy to think how absolutely little you need to live a good, happy life.
For instance, I tested this theory by doing something totally out of my comfort zone. I’ve been fortunate enough to stay in hotels for the most part of my life while traveling. But, when traveling alone and to just see the world, there is really no need for that especially while on a budget. I decided to stay in a hostel.
So many, including myself, like to think of that word meaning; dirty, sketchy, shady, ect, ect, ect. Absolutely, completely wrong.
After being in Australia, now 3 times, and having the luxury to work with backpackers, I have heard that hostels are the way to go when traveling alone. However, like anything, you should definitely do your research…to be better safe than sorry.
I decided to stay at a family owned hostel in Waikiki for 2 nights as I was unsure if I would really like it or not. To my surprise, it was quite enjoyable. I had 5 roommates from all over the world, some only in for a few days. They ranged from the Netherlands, Italy, Germany, Australia, and New Jersey. The best part was, we all shared one common goal, to explore Hawaii and make the best out of our trip.
It by far, was one of my greatest accomplishments to do on my own. Believe me, it was so scary at first. I didn’t know who to talk to, where to sit, proper protocol, or event if I would be able to sleep. But, I did it! I opened up to people, made new friends, learned to survive, and even ended up staying all 5 nights in the hostel!
Which brings me to another scary point but completely worth it in the end, is traveling alone. It’s hard,IMG_2523 and not easy but can definitely be done. It really does teach you so much about yourself…
Although, I wasn’t alone ALL of my trips. I have so many to thank for being by my side…(and if I forgot you, don’t worry, I really didn’t, I just didn’t give you this special shout out) Thank you Jeff, Saul, Lotte, MJ, Jay & Jane, all the staff at Hollywood horrors, Brennan, Chad & Claire, and Kinzie. All of you put up with living and working with me at some point or another and helping me throughout my journey in many ways that I will forever be thankful for…
But when it came time to being alone, it was quite tough. I feel it was only tough because that is what my head was telling me. We really can do anything we want. They just never told us somethings, it isn’t as easy as it looks. You just kind of have to figure that part out on your own…
I guess what I’m really trying to say is that traveling alone can be quite overwhelming especially at first and it can definitely get a bit lonely at times. Also, as a young woman, traveling alone, I had to be very good at reading people and very aware of my surroundings at all times.
IMG_2399I know it was scary, lonely, intimidating, and hard at times, I wouldn’t take back the moments that I was able to have and experience. It forced me to learn directions (Yes, Jeff, believe it or not, I learned how to get around cities by bus, train, and even walking!), to talk to new people, to reconnect with friends I have from all over the world, to eat new food, to try new things, and to do things that I would normally never do because I was completely able to be out of my comfort zone..
I can’t begin to explain the whirlwind of emotions that I went through on my journeys but what I can tell you is that it is worth every second… I have and always will support traveling. It is a part of me now that I take with me wherever I go.
Now that I am on my last flight writing this last piece to my journey, I can begin to explain what all is going through my head…
To wonder “What if?” And, “Whats next?”is one of the scariest things to think about… but I know I have some great opportunities out there for me. I have some great places in mind to move and I now know I really can make it on my own.
I do truly hope that I will not have to do this alone forever.. I would love nothing more than to share these journeys, experiences, and memories with someone.IMG_2507
So many of my friends are in a relationship, married, or have kids at this stage in their lives. I couldn’t be more happy and proud of them! I’m just not one to push this subject on anyone, but it sometimes can make you think and wonder why not me?
I can’t force anything to happen with that part of my life. I know it will happen when I least expect it. I couldn’t be more thankful for those people that show up in your life though during your travels that remind you of the good qualities that you do have…they provide a sense of hope for your future…and that I won’t be alone forever…
Whatever I decided to do after this journey is totally up to me. I have the ability to do whatever I want because it is my life and I need to just live. It is not about the right or the wrong decision, it is about doing what is going to make me happy…
I finally feel I am completely ready for the next chapter of my life…Let the next journey begin…

“Find The Courage To Just Be Happy”

 

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